I'm back in the city, but leaving Ohio was harder than I thought it would be.
The last week of my break, I was basically all by myself. Which means I woke up at like 10.30, sat around and ate all day until my family came home at like 6. I got so bored. But then when my family did come home I had a really great time. I really just hung out with my sister all of the time, and I realized how things are going to change when she's gone in China. I mean not just that she's not there, but like she doesn't have a summer break. She basically became an adult and that really freaks me out. & it was really hard to leave because of that.

Just packing made me start to cry. uh just the thought of leaving my sister & my mom totally broke my heart. So I cried all morning, cried in the car ride to the airport (at 4 in the fucking morning), cried in line for security, and cried on the plane. But when I got back into the city, I realized that I was actually coming back to something really wonderful here. & that wonderful thing is my boyfriend. aka NYC.
But Rel was really great, we caught up (which we had been doing all month long) & walked around out city. which we love sosososo much.
Its funny b/c I feel like this is my home. & I say its funny b/c I get the same feeling in Ohio. Its just so nice to walk along the same streets and be comfortable. It felt like I was gone for a week. :)

My last night in New York was really good. Tiffany has gone earlier that morning so for basically the first time ever, I had the room to myself! the gang came over & we ordered Sammy's just like always - which means chicken lomen, beef & broccoli, and pork fried rice. I tried to throw everything together while Alex wrapped his presents, Rel tried to learn this really hard song, and Josh was editing the intro to my writing final (aka he replaced some of my words with his, aka he wrote it for me). We all hung out late despite the fact that I had an ear-training final the next morning.
Rel helped me onto my train at Grand Central, and, of course, it was way sad. If we prolonged the goodbye we would have both been teary messes.
And so with that, my month away from the city began.
It's been actually really great. I've been doing absolutely nothing. It's fabulous.
We went to Cleveland for Christmas which was laaaame. & got some random gifts. & I've been loving my mom so much & also really love spending time with her.
New Years was fun. I was totally drunkenly dumb & I have the pictures to prove it.

So I'll be just hanging out for the next month & really really missing the city & school.
oh ps I gave the blog a new look, hoping it would inspire me to write in here more